Sunday, November 08, 2009. 8:16 PM
i dunno wat more to say. u crushed mie like u did before in the past. i dun wanna bring the past back into our brand new "friendship". but U. U really hv to got there don't u. i'm freakingly HURT!. u do noe that. but u're still playing ard dun you. i mean c'mon lar. grow up!. are u confuse or something???.
i shld be MAD and fuck u upside dwn. but i didn't. i jus lay low and understand the fucking whole situation. i really dun noe wats up with u. i dun even noe wat was going tru ur mind wen all tt happen btw us. it seems like u jus like playing ard with mie coz hell. i'm easy to trick right. i noe. jus bcoz i hv hearts for u, u take the advantage of doing tt to mie. NICE ONE.
i CRIED. but do u noe? u dun!. U JUS DON'T. jus like any other. y do u hv to act like u care? act like u wanna noe more bout mie?. act like u bother much about mie? act like u understand my situation?. act like u wanna be with mie??.
Fuck! i jus dun understand!!!! i guess its freaking true tt LOVE IS BLIND. tooo FREAKING BLIND for mie to let him use mie. let him HURT mie.
i dun hv the FUCKING mood for studies anymore n u add this into my life??. WTF.
on a lighter note:
Thanks for the precious and lovely memories tt we had.
i still do like u. i still do care for u.
here's for u my BbyB. Haru.
i'm taking my HEART AWAY wit mie for the time being.and YES. the short hrs we spent together is enough. ENOUGH to break mie into TEARS every single time i remember the precious moments we shared.
nutzzie
Saturday, November 07, 2009. 11:21 PM
First UP!
ASSIGNMENTS NOT DONE!!!.
wtf. get it done by 2mrw shikin!!!!. oh gosh!. wats up with mie????. can't be bothered with nothing much nowadays. i mean like.... fuck!. i DUN CARE ar!!.
den.. in the morning. Saturday morning. wen to Sentosa with BbyB H. yup2. only the 2 of us. kakak dun believe. but hey. things happen. and i kinda like it. haha. SOO. are we OFFICIALLY together??. i DUNNO. gotta ask him. tts what dey all say. ask to confirm.. but after wat happen on saturday morning. i'm sorta confused...damn right i'm CONFUSED!!!.
i've never been this confused wen it comes to him.. seriously.. i will go all out no matter how EMBARRASSING it wld be for mie. i DUNNO. like NAD say.
my MOTTO : GO WITH THE FLOW!.
and damn i will go with the flow. haha.
oooh. den after tt wen watch
MJ: This Is It.
well. its a documentary. but hey. its not that bad.
*enlightened mie my dearest! coz u hv stolen my heart!*nutzzie
Wednesday, November 04, 2009. 12:10 PM
this last few days. GOSH!. can i not go sch no more. like F$#%ing seriously. i totally got no mood at all. no motivation at all. like no NOTHING ar seh!!. WTH!. modules like watever ar seh!. not that i can't cope. jus CAn'T be bothered!. like hell seriously.
now waiting for class to start. yeap2. so since i've yet to blog bout loads of stuff. here i am. still i dun wanna crap about the rest. lets CRAP bout SCH!. haha. not that i hate sch or anything. likewise i say no fucking MOOD!.
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tutorials all didn't do.
projects piling up.
STILL i DUN CARE!!.
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oh oh. apart from that. haha. i'm MISSING you!!. u noe who lar kan. frankly. i MISS mie friends. yes. my ITE mates. wan to see u all can??
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apart from sch being such an ass. oooh. yesterday i jus found out tt i still hv $100 in my bank!!. LOL. big frreaking LOL!!. haha. coz i thought i no money no more mah in bank. den yest. go check. den hv money lor. haha. can buy new clothes already!!. but dun wan ar. sure i spent my money on food!. for mie self n mie babies. haha.
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battery dying!!.
wan to charge in class. soo ltr ar. for now.
see u all on the next entry lar eh!.
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nutzzie
Thursday, October 29, 2009. 11:50 PM
apparently. i've jus realise tt my hair is long enough to cover my face and most importantly to cover up watever emotions i feel wen i'm listening to my songs. haha. random-ness. well of coz. i hide A LOT u noe. well u dun. coz i've just pointed out tt i HIDE a whole lot.
school. end of second week. GOSH!. i'm TIRED!. i skip 2 lectures n 1 tutorial. can't get up!. been sick!. but. its okay. even if i go. i wldn't even understand anything at all. so its the same actually. either i'm at sch or not. i study wen i feel like it. haha. well. not all the modules are dry. except for WEB PUBLISHING. computer stuff. DUH~. sch start at 8.30 am tomorrow. i can't sleep. dunno y. i've been sleeping quite early dese few days. hmmmm.
i dunno wat to say. haha. oh yeah. my SW elective is AEROBICS. huahua. the last time i went for aerobics was in primary sch. long2 time agooo. oh wells. dun matter. for ONE semester only. soooo. ITS OKAY.
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okay i was bored. haha. i nid to SCREAM. like always. must have this one time in a few months to SCREAM my ass off. just to get rid of something something u noe. HEY. its a good thing. let off some STEAM!. haha.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
not done yet though. sacing it for next time. huahuahua.
nutzzie
Sunday, October 18, 2009. 9:55 AM
ooohkayyy. this was suppose to be in like yesterday morning. SUNDAY morning. bt i kinda gotten distracted. so here it is. now. school starts and oh gosh!. i really nid to buck up and a recall all the MATHS stuff tt i bury in deep inside my head from like 2 yrs ago. the moment i saw the notes given by this young teacher. i was like. oh GREAT!!!. starting off its okay. i can still do it. bt ltr. comfirm. cannot make it ar!.
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actually yesterday wanted to write in abt something tt i can't really get out of my head coz its kinda FORCING itself out. this doesn't bother other much coz well, it doen't concern them. bt wat abt others?. the one who is affected by it. and also the one who wld say anything. anything to get things their ways. and wat abt others who raised thier opinion. n demanding the facts wen dey know the truth???. i really dun get it at all... so much of mie wanting to owned up and say something. but i guess. i'm just as timid as others wld be. oh gosh!. enough already PLEASE. get over it. ppl dun change the way they are. and u're not letting it gets any better with watever things u say or do!.
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on the other hand. HE CALLED. yes wen he's having break in camp. he called. was caught by suprised!. but hey, he called. so dere. atleast he called. after wat? 2 wks in camp?. yup2. unlike some. pfft! well. u know who i'm refering to with all of this lar kan. BbyB H. its so freaking obvious. O.O
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sch starts at 2pm tomorrow. nid to get some shut eyes. cannot sleep late anymore. i couldn't wake up today eventhough was supposed to be in sch at 1pm. i still cldn't get myself to wake uP!!!.
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oh oh.
the look on each other faces. gosh!.
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nutzzie
Wednesday, October 14, 2009. 2:22 AM
sch is opening back in like few days time. OH GOSH!. O.O and i've prepared basically nothing. oh wells. wen did i ever prepare for anything abt sch lar seh. my timetable. -_-"
eventhough dere's only like friday sch starts at 8 and ends ard 12. i doubt tt i'll be gg off early coz. confirm got project to do lar seh!.
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next. TV shows. will i ever get sick of it??. well yes. the new shows i supposed. i'm just not into those new tv series. i prefer to watch the ones tt i've been watching since i was in like wat??. secondary sch or something like now it will be like their 5th or 6th season. or maybe 9th season. and and mus have this one person tt i LIKE to make mie keep on watching the show.
like this one. he's HOOOOT!!! i LOIKE!!!!! *.*
Jonathan Togo/ Ryan Wolfe
[CSI: MIAMI]
eventhough dere's only like friday sch starts at 8 and ends ard 12. i doubt tt i'll be gg off early coz. confirm got project to do lar seh!.
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next. TV shows. will i ever get sick of it??. well yes. the new shows i supposed. i'm just not into those new tv series. i prefer to watch the ones tt i've been watching since i was in like wat??. secondary sch or something like now it will be like their 5th or 6th season. or maybe 9th season. and and mus have this one person tt i LIKE to make mie keep on watching the show.
like this one. he's HOOOOT!!! i LOIKE!!!!! *.*
Jonathan Togo/ Ryan Wolfe
[CSI: MIAMI]
currently i'm HOOKED up with the latest seasons of CSI: MIAMI. NCIS. HEROES. CRIMINAL MINDS. PSYCH. and so on so forth. oh my TEEVEE!!!. ADDICTED as i am, i CAN live without it if dere's no tv ard mie though. really.
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oh oh. tv is my only place to watch and basically think. THINK ALOT. really. yes eventhough the show i watched doesn't make any sense to wat i'm gg thru. i do alot of thinking basically abt everything wen i'm watching tv. sch, personal. family. watever it is tt swims ard this head of mind.
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so much to tell but my lips are sealed shut. i dun wanna say!. i can't bare to say it. so i'm gonnna let it bottle up n hide it inside. DEEP DEEP inside of mie. until I break. simple rite. i know. i love bottling things up. so no one else gets hurt in the process. rite!!!!!!.
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taken from :
http://www.etonline.com/news/2009/10/79633/index.html
OMG! NEw MOON!. 2hrs long!!! power ar. BETTER worth my money n time for sitting two hrs to watch it eh!. i took almost a month to finished up the book. and dey say dey might change a scene or two. bt 2HRS long. everything shld be in as like in the BOOK okay. haha. ye OBSsES much with TWILIGHT SAGA. i LOVED!. bt not Robert Pattison though. i dun LIKE. haha. weee >.<
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Tuesday, October 06, 2009. 9:35 PM
my beloved cuzzies!.
mother side. father sides. not full though both sides. nevertheless. love dem loads. dey all kecohrables. haha.
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ooh. u noe. i will alwyas get tis every single time i trash much abt someone. the nx day. i'm all okay. i take dem back. take whatever crap i said earlier. like seriously. shld've seen it coming. *dush*. okay its him lar. i sorta miss him u noe. like freaking tk perlu-ness coz he's jus well in NS. miss him like how i miss ISK. but... ooooh. shut up aites. i can't go back n undo watever i said. oh brother. enuf said. i gotta fet myself thinking straigt already!. think straight before sch open!! oh SCH!!!!..
nutzzie
nutzzie
